I don't know where he goes.

Well, Ginger has been making some advances. Not just sexual advances-- emotional ones. I've been fielding him for months, but he's always one step behind me. I've already told him the concept of commitment right now makes me antsy, and in turn he seduced me to take my mind off of it. He's clever....and that frightens me a smidgen. IDK HOW TO OUTSMART AN ARIES! haha as off the wall as that sounds, as a cancer, I'm not sure how to continue to field someone who's driven by the thrill of the chase! oohhhh fate thou art cruel.

When it feels good to be me..

That's when I'll know.

When it feels good to be me, whomever that may be..When I like the shape of my body, love the sound of my voice.. When I love the texture of my hair, the color of my skin. When I feel comfortable being alone.. When I see myself letting go of fear, discontentment, lack, and doubt.. When I laugh at the thought of censoring myself for the sake of anyone else.. When I can proudly say my name.. When I am eager to share my thoughts.. When I release preoccupation with opinons.. When I can take you to my favorite places.. When I can read you my favorite books.. When I can tell you about my dreams.. and where I'm going, and where I've been.. When I can sing you my own songs.. When I can accept a loss.. When I'm not consumed with being 'enough'.. When I see they're moving on and know I'm doing the same.. When I feel its okay to cry, When I learn from the pain as well as the joy.. When I can do it all by myself...

That's when I'll know I'm ready for you.
xoxo