What is this world coming to?

When did our "sexual revolution" become a "devolution" for the male gender? Where in our quest to level the playing field did we become the sole pursuers?

I'm honestly trying to wrap my mind around how I am not only being pursued by any guys, but how guys have come to expect that I do the pursuing. Listen. I want to be wooed, pursued, seduced like everyone else-- having a healthy sexual appetite doesn't mean I'm going to seek you out to bed you or what have you.

I'm beautiful, funny, charming, intelligent, witty and a good laugh to have around. So why am I single? I have no idea, so please stop asking me like it's my fault. That's one of my pet peeves, when someone says to me, "You're so gorgeous, why are you still single?" or "you're just too picky, there are loads of guys interested in you!" This isn't how this works; just because a guy is interested in me doesn't mean it is or will be mutual. So don't assume it's all my doing, because I can assure you its not.

I've come to terms with the fact that I'm too much for most men to handle, and I've come to terms with the fact that I can be too much for anyone to handle at times. I'm not looking for love, because when it's meant to happen, it will-- all I'm looking for in a guy is fun times, a good kisser, a great sense of humor and if he can make me feel like the lady I am. Is that so hard to find? Yes, damn near impossible.

and like an idiot...

I took the bet. Fuck. Me. Sideways. A friend of mine bet I couldn't do without sex until she had sex, so I figured "hell I'm already not having sex, why not?" now I've realized what I've done. And I'm P I S S E D.

Ughhh so I figure I'll at least write about it, someone will have some laughs or will feel the same haha idk.

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Enjoi my misery.

This Obsession

This obsession is catching let me tell you. It's like wildfire, passing with a glance, a touch, a whispered word, heated caresses in an empty room-- Lust. My sin of choice is gaining speed in my life, haha, and I've realized that this want, need, obsession-- call it what you want-- is an important part of me. I couldn't date a guy or even think of being with a guy knowing that it's not an option for him. As horrible as that sounds, I'm like that guy who dumps his virgin girlfriend because she won't have sex with him. Wow. Haha only I'm not going to lead some girl on into thinking I love her so I can bed her, oh no, I'm not stooping that low. But I know that I can't fully get into a relationship with a guy knowing we're never going to be physical because I know in my heart of hearts that it's only a matter of time before I seek it elsewhere or temptation befalls me. I'm strong, but if the opportunity presents itself and I'm not committed, believe you me, I'm leaping at the opportunity.

Sex is as much a part of me as writing or dancing, so if a guy has a problem with that, he can take his pansy ass somewhere else with that.